I don't think it matters..but take this as you will. (my spelling sucks, to lazy for spellcheck)
you don’t remember how it used to be.
like you wanna just pretend to not remember how you used to talk to me..
so cute, it made me happy, it kept me snae, kept me happy..so what if we’ve changed..so what if..just..sigh..
i can’t even begin to express the hurt i hold back.
the hurt i hide from you..
in hopes you catch some sort of hint. in hopes that you won’t disregard it. i feel like your tired all the time now. and we dont get to talk as much. a relationship that has lasted for almost 3 years should not be this way. please tell me otherwise, because i missed the memo.
is it the silence? is it the fact that theres nothing to talk about? are we that fucking boring? the silence over the phone is whatever it doesnt bother me. but it’s like everytime theres a silience, your suddenly tired, and you fucking play on the computer all day , and drive your mom around here there and everywhere..you can’t give me an hour? one hour. one measly little hour is all i ask. just one. just one. just one. im sorry weve been fighting, im sorry im a horrible girlfriend, but im really trying. i really really am. sigh, you probably wont even read this. but it doesnt matter..at least i think. you say you’ve gone back to your old ways, of emotionless and mono tone, and not so sensitive..
but..i think i deserve to be shown the emotion, the sensitivity, i think i deserve that much. but it doesnt matter. at least i think. i don’t mean this to be a a way of telliung you how i feel. those are not my intentions. take this however..